Free Falling 

Free Falling

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I live by these words " dream as if you'll live forever, but live as if you'll die tomorrow".

Life is what I love: living, breathing, loving... The simplest things bring a smile to my lips. There are so many things that people overlook. Every once in a while, we need to slow down...listen to the drizzle of the rain on the windows, close our eyes as the breeze plays with our hair, turn our eyes to the sky and count the stars, fling our arms outward- spin around and around...let our eyes close, and let go- trusting that someone will be there to catch us.

Whenever I get stressed, I surround myself with people who I know will make me laugh (or, I go to a snack bar and grab a pretzel and cappuchino). Around them, I can lose myself, let go of limits and expectations. Act as stupid as I want- scream at the top of my lungs, sing out tune, bounce off the walls, snort when I laugh, play like a little kid, laugh so hard that it hurts. Laughter...that's one of the best things in the world, the way it makes a person feel...

There is so much hate, depression, anger, and worry in this world that people tend to forget how to LIVE. It's amazing how some people treasure material possessions over all else. Honestly, I'd rather own only myself and the ability to love and laugh. I'd choose poeple over money anyday. I treasure human emotion; humans are complicated, amazing creatures that can not be duplicated or replaced. I embrace my weaknesses: like my lack of physical strength, the way my lips quiver when I cry, the way I melt when my face is caressed, my inability to succeed at everything. Perfection is a word that is out of our reach. Perfection is a bore. If we were to reach the level of flawlessness...where would we go from there? We would have no other mountains to climb or battles to fight. There would be no need or room for improvement. There would be no craving of satisfaction or will to survive, because everything would already be conquered. I wouldn't be able to stand a life like that. The things you hate about yourself could very well be exactly what someone else finds intriguing. Don't always try to hide your weaknesses, they could end up being your strongest assets. I enjoy my imperfections, they keep me entertained and give me the drive I need to succeed. If everything about me was perfect, I would become lazy, uncaring, and obnoxious. I enjoy having weaknesses, it gives me something to work on.

There are risks involved in all we do. They're weaved into each breath we take. Life is a risk in itself.

I have no idea why i am alive or what the purpose of life is. It's very possible that life has no purpose. Maybe we make our own intentions for existing. But, we're here, so why not make the most of it? Why question it? Why crave misery over happiness? I believe life is exactly what we make of it. I choose to believe in a higher being. It gives me faith, it give me a reason. I choose to keep the laughter alive and my heart open. I choose to love unconditionaly. Life is whatever we want it to be. I choose to fight against anger and misery. They get us nowhere. Depression and hate only bring us down and weaken us. Love is strength. I respect those who love with all their heart and who live with a faith stronger than I could ever imagine feeling. I choose to believe in certain things, even if there is no possibility for them to be true, such as: love triumphs all evil. Everyone has good in them. Things happen for a reason. Every problem has a solution. We can do whatever we put our mind and heart to. True love never dies, and angels watch over us.

I believe in tyring with all my might and fighting with all that I am. I believe in doing unto others what I would have them do unto me. Appreciation is a necessity; never take anything or anyone for granted. Noone is perfect, we all make mistakes. We hold no right to judge others, but everyone deserves love and a second chance. Do not take for granted those that care for you, because you may never find another person who cares for you that strongly. People can never be replaced, that's why you should treasure those around you.

I believe in loving blindly and giving myself completely to others. Don't let the fear of getting hurt or failing hold you back. Try with all your heart, you'll be doomed if you don't.

Writing is my passion, it's what keeps me (somewhat) sane. Love is my life, and life is my love. I pour myself into all that I do. I try my best to be kind. Kowing that I've helped someone and seeing them smile is what gives me fuel. It gives me a purpose, a reason. Loving others and knowing that I am loved is what keeps me alive. I do not fear death because I know that when my time comes I will have no regrets. We make our own decisions, we make our own chances. Happiness and satisfaction aren't always handed on a silver platter. Not everything comes with a manual of instructions. We must find out for ourselves. Sometimes we must truly work for what we want.

As a wise woman once said, "nobody is tough and strong all the time. To say that is to deny human emotion." If you feel sad, if you feel the need to cry, don't be ashamed. Don't ever be ashamed. Sometimes just letting the tears fall is the best stress reliever in the world. If somebody laughs at you for showing sadness, for showing grief, for showing emotion, then they are not worthy of your time.

Live for the moment. Hold nothing back. Learn to follow your heart, even if it disobeys all laws of logic. Live for yourself. Love others with a passion that ensnares your heart. But, always remember to find love for yourself as well.

In the end, it's not the years in your life that count, it's the life in your years.

It's not strength of life, it's depth of life.

Love is a sign from the Heavens that you're here for a reason.

Insomniac