My Fire 

My Fire

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There are some who say love is for fools, if that is true..then I am a complete and utter fool.

Love is the one emotion that I'm sure of. It is my fuel..my fire..my spirit. Love is what I live for..and what I live to feel. A life without love..without laughter...without happiness is empty..pointless. Hate, anger, vengence..they all suffocate, they only drown you. But, love...love give you wings...love...happiness...let you fly, they free you.

Love for others, for things, for myself...it all builds me up. Gives me strength to face each day, even when I'm at my lowest. It gives me a will to live, a purpose.

Caring is not a waste, having a heart does not make you weak. Ignoring love is what burdens you. Filling yourself with hate is a waste. I don't think there is anyone who can honestly say that they do not enjoy happiness. How far will hate and anger take you? How much satisfaction can they offer? Not much..or else those who are angry would not feel the need to continue searching, to ask others for an answer.

I love life...everything about it. There are imperfections, I accept that. I also accept and understand that I will enventually die. But, I know that I will die with a smile on my face... because I live a satisfied life..loving others gives me strength, peace of mind, joy. I live my life in constant search of happiness, not only for myself, but for those around me as well. I pity those who are selfish. I feel remorse for those who do not know the touch of happiness...the warmth of being able to smile.

Life is not a mistake...a pain. I feel compassion for those who have forgotten how to live...who do not appreciate the small things in life...jumping up and down to some dumb rap song, singing your heart out to the radio...even if you are completely out of tune, lying in the grass and just staring at the sky, splashing in puddles, dancing in the rain, starting (and ending) pillow fights, laughing so hard that you almost pee yourself...I'm surrounded by people who fill my life with these little things every minute of my day...and I truly appreciate that. Don't take people for granted....you may never replace them. You may never find someone who loves you that much...you may never find someone with as much patience and stubborness to not give up on you...if someone truly cares, they'll be there to listen, no matter what you have to say. When you feel alone...like noone could possibly care about you...just open you eyes.

How many happy people do you see who are angry and depressed? The feeling of love may not be concrete...it may not be "real"...but, it's that's the case, then it sure is a heavenly lie. You may not be able to grasp it with the physical touch...but that doesn't mean that it's not there. You make you own faith. You decide what is real. You make your own belief, your own destiny, your OWN happiness. No one is going to do it for you...no one has that ability. Feeling sorry for yourself is pointless....I may be a fool...but at least I'm a happy one.

Love forever and always...

Insomniac