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***Went camping with Meg, Sam, Matt, James and Michael. Of course, it started storming and so we decided to pack up and crash at Meg's. I got to play in the rain though, so I'm not complaining. :). Ya, we all went for a walk around midnite, and Matt and I splashed in puddles. Haha, it was fun. Of course, I couldn't fall asleep until 5 this morning and then Matt woke me up asking about strawberries and banannas.....weird...Meg and James are still aslepp (lucky people....) and I'm hungry.....but too lazy to actually fix myself something...is that sad, or what?
Ugh, I really really really miss Kelly right now. grrrrrr.......
Help me carry on
Assure me it's ok to use my heart and not my eyes
To navigate the darkness
Will the ending be ever coming suddenly?
Will I ever get to see the ending to my story?
***...I don't know...I'm just in a strange mood. Whether it's good or bad..I can't tell.
I feel the dream in me expire
and there's no one left to blame it on
I hear you label me a liar
cause I can't seem
to get this through...
You say it's over...
I can sigh again..yeah..
why try to stay sober
when I'm dying here....
and I am aware of how everything's gonna be fine
one day, too late, I'm in Hell.
***What am I feeling? I don't know! I can't even answer my own question. I can't even decode my own emotions.
...against my will
i stand beside my own reflection
it's haunting
how I can't seem..
to find myself again..
my walls are closing in
I've felt this way before...
so insecure
*** Before I say anything, i would just like to make it known that......Crackers is a sexy cat. ......ok.....on with the blog.
Went to Kyle's--Sam, Daniel, and Matt were there also. It surprised me that Daniel was nice to me--I'm glad that we can actually be friends. :). So...ya, I had fun.
*** It's frickin hot!!!! Right now i'm taking a break from switching rooms. It's amazing how much JUNK we have. Wow.
My dad keeps shoving the whole "family time" stuff in my face. Very annoying. Very very very VERY annoying.
Spent the nite at Sam's last nite. Kyle and Dillon came over. We had a bit of a bottle rocket fight with Kyle. We won, oh ya. :):). Ok, this is boring. Toodle tah tah. Sam, I'm gonna call ya later tonite.
*** It's great to be home!!!! Right now I'm hanging out with Sam and Meg. They're eating pizza...and I gotta pee. But...ya, I'll take care of that tiny problem in a bit.
Yesterday was pretty fun. I had to spend time with my "mother" for the first half of the day. Then, later on, i went swimming with Kelly, Sam, and Kyle (he REALLY needs to keep his shorts on :)). *sigh*. ok, this is a bore, tah tah.
round and round
the carousel goes
what happens when it stops?
no one truly knows
grasp me by the wrists
let's play tug of war
walk down life's hall
and choose your final door
knock once
now knock twice
a rap of three would surely suffice
sing me a song
as we dance among the flowers
harmonies of innocense
and what your heart devours
you and I shall have our dance
twirling softly,
in our own ambiance
I think I'll blow bubbles
at the heavens
skidding accross stars
and life's deep deceptions
now fly away,
so meek and airy
on blood of a unicorn
and wings of a faerie
close your eyes
against torrential rain
and kiss me quick
on lovers lane
and now color me pure
like a sinless dove
clip these fierce wings
as I bow down to love
*** Yesterday was fun, b/c I got to spend most of it with Kelly, Sam, and Dustin. I leave tomorrow! Three weeks of no Kelly...*shivers*.
Let's see...what did we do yesterday...went to Rogers' bowling alley, which was fun. :). Guys are so cute when you get them in arcades, they're like little kids. Then...we just went to a few parks--Sam and I forc--I mean...."asked" to take pics. What is it with guys freaking out at the sight of a camera? Finally, we ended up at Sam's and watched some movie, I didn't pay attention to most of it.
*yawn*....ok, this is my last post for a whie, unfortunately I don't really have much to say....I don't feel like typing about things that piss me off--i don't want to leave with a negative post. *even though I vent to Sam*
lalala...........ok.....I love Kelly (who's such a cutie), Sam finally picked her shamrock, allergies REALLY suck, I wish Kyle the best, being left out hurts, and I get to spend the day with my three best friends. (oh ya.....I love Kelly).
Btw: ........BOJANGLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.......um...bojangles?
*** hehe....sam keeps slapping me b/c i wrot----ouch!! well, never MIND then. Hm...maybe i can use some kind of code...*ouch* or not....grrrr....Sam's a raging psychopath. And she can't stop grinning ear to ear, it's kinda scary...she's lookin' freaky. Sam said that last sentence sounded "wrong", i can tell where her mind is at...and how ever could it have gotten THERE? Someone must have helped it along...now, who could that have been? hm? hehe....she's getting jumpy again. haha, this is fun, she can't stop me from writing all this poo...hm...ok then..I'll just say this..."A lil Irish never hurt"...
*ok...well, i dunno what else to write........sam's a dork, everyone should pick themselves a four leaf clover, allergies suck, i love my kelly, meg's a ho ho ho....ho ho ho..., and.......i'm just dumb. Toodlepoo. :):):)
** I'm feelin sexy
I wanna hear you say my name
If you can reach me
You can feel my burning flame
Tonight i'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
We're gonna turn this party out
I know you want my body
Tonight i'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
I see you look me up and down
And i came to party
You're so sexy, tonight i am all yours boy
The way your body moves across the floor
You got me feelin n-a-s-t-y
I might just take you home with me
*** It's 6:52 pm, and I just woke up not too long ago. I went camping last nite, and it was pretty fun. I had to climb that damn fire tower AGAIN. *shivers*. *yawn*.
Less than a week before I'm off to spend 3 weeks with my grandparents. I think I'm supposed to get back June...18th...somewhere around there. joy. I wish myself luck.
*** It's raining...my favorite kind of day. I love just closing my eyes...listening to the mellow drizzle as it falls from the heavens...and knowing that once sight is lost, it's just me and this serenity.
*sigh* How can you be cold towards a person who has never done anything wrong to you?..people deserve chances. People deserve the benefit of a doubt. I know I'm not the best in the world, I'll be the first to admit that. But, I'm not a heartless bitch either. It's just confusing when a person dislikes me, and yet they won't give a reason why. To me, that's very judgemental. How can you choose to not like a person whom you know nothing about?
Hello there...
The angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue..
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me..
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
and in the nite we'll wish this never ends..
we'll wish this never ends..
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