depths of my soul 

My view on Same Sex Marriages

*** This is a paper I wrote for my English class.

What is marriage? The dictionary defines marriage as the state of being united to a person of the opposite sex, as husband and wife (Gove). But, marriage is also looked upon as a sacred trust between two consenting individuals (www.religious tolerance.org). Since both these statesments are formed from the root of opinion, neither can be proven wrong. But, no matter what the correct definition, should the government, or anyone, have a say in personal affairs such as this?

Marriage is a basic human right and a personal, individual choice (www.religioustolerance.org). Until recently, same sex couples were not allowed to marry anywhere in the world (www.religioustolerance.org). Canada is one of the few places where same sex marriage is legal. Canada now views marriage as a way to publicly recognize a committed relationship between two adults (marriage.about.com). Homosexuals are not the only minority who has faced this problem. It wasn't until after the Civil War that African Americans could marry in all parts of the United States (www.religioustolerance.org). Also, mixed race couples weren't permitted union until 1967 (www.religioustolerance.org). It seems as if the past is repeating itself. Once society is rid of one controversial figure, another is mounted for debate.

So, why has this become such a huge issue? Religion plays a key role. Same sex marriage has become a ripple in the tide pool of religious structure. Those who oppose same sex marriages are trying to preserve what their faith forbids. According to belief under God, marriage is a faithful, exclusive, lifelong union of a man and a woman joined in an intimiate community of life and love (www.usccb.org). They think that by allowing Homosexuals to wed, God's intent for marriage is not being upheld.

Though I fully respect Christain views, I also realize that faith under God is not the only religious creed. Why should all of society follow the path of one belief, when not all trust in God? Same sex couples are denied marrage when, at the same time, we are granted freedom of religion.

Personally, I don't find it fair for the Church to force its views on anyone. Homosexuals don't force their way of life on Heterosexuals, shouldn't they be treated with the same respect?

This shouldn't be looked upon solely as a religion versus same sex marriage ordeal. Asking what is right and what is wrong is too black and white. There will always be two sides of opinion, no matter what arguments are made. One way to solve this issue would be to allow same sex couples marriage under a judge. That way, the Church remains unscathed.

Everyone views marriage under a different light. Basically, it's whatever society decides it is, we need to accept this simple reality: marriage is not a natural law; it's a human institution that's defined by humans and subject to change by humans (www.balloon-juice.com).

I wonder if some who oppose gay marriage are honestly defending their faith, or if they're simply sickened by the thought of a sexuality different from their own. Why should gender be regarded as an issue? What should be important is the love and desire to live together in a committed, lifelong relationship that two people feel (www.religious tolerance.org). It is said that each individual is created differently, isn't it possible that sexuality preference is one of those differences?

Before jumping to fight against gay marriages think on your own, and put yourself in the position of a same sex couple. Don't be against something this important just because everyone else is, or because you live your life in a way different to someone else's. How would you feel if you deeply loved a person, but then you were told that your love was wrong? That it was a sinful mistake. Imagine wanting to marry someone and then having that desire denied because of a factor beyond your control. These are some of the scenarios that same sex couples must put up with. Is it fair to try and tell a person who they can love, and whom they can spend the rest of their life with? No. The emotion of love that an individual feels should not be subject to interrogation. I don't find it fair for homosexuals to have to battle for the right to marry. It seems to me that we, as individuals, should keep our noses where they belong, in our own business.

I believe that the following quote, found at www.religioustolerance.org, makes a very good point: "A loving man and woman in a committed realtionship can marry. Dogs, no matter what their relationship, are not allowed to marry. How should society treat gays and lesbians in a committed relationship? As dogs, or as humans?"

Marriage should be open to anyone, regardless of sexuality, race, religion, or way of life. A person's privacy and lifestyle should be respected at all costs, as long as they are in no way inflicting harm upon themselves, or anyone around them. What will become of this issue? Only time will tell.

Stuff

***

My skin prickles, as cold rain drizzles downward, washing away all sense of time and turmoil. Eyes closed, I spin slowly, face turned upward, lost in my own enchanted dream. A smile plays upon my lips, as a soft kiss brushes my cheek. Even without sight, I know it's you. I hold tight, loathing to let go. Unwilling to let you melt away into droplets of nothingness. You caress my cheek lightly, as we dance beneath the heavens, alone in our own ambiance. You promise to never to leave my side. I whisper that I hope these words are true; you answer with a single kiss. I smile with a warmth that ensnares my heart, and decide that, you, I trust. But, as I lean for another kiss, frigid air is all I sense. As shining eyes open against the rain, they find that your promise lays unkept.

against my will I stand beside my own reflection, it's haunting how I can't seem

against my will I stand beside my own reflection
it's haunting how I can't seem...

to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
so insecure

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real

Don't Know

***

don't shove me into a Paxil world
just because I cry
just because I sit in tears
doesn't mean I wish to die
don't hurt me like I know you will
or love me without care
I know what pain feels like
so love me if you dare
don't say you'll stay for all of time
don't promise as you hold me close
your heart beating next to mine
don't let me fall too fast
until red is all I see
you see I have begun to learn
love can be a paradise
but those three words can burn.

*** I have to work on my debate--it's over same sex marriages. I practically begged my group to let it be our topic. I'm For it--so I thought it'd be a fun little controversial thing--debating's fun, if you like to fight.

Migraine

*** Not a good day, not in a good mood, not a great time to piss me off.

*Today's been Hell on Earth. My dad (apparently) woke up in a bitchy mood--which set off everyone else's anger--and because he insisted on PMSing, my stepmom isn't all too happy. Adam had to bitch about my dad in front of Beth, which caused World Wars III and IV. So, now he's off to relieve his pain, and my sis is still fuming. Now my head hurts, and I'm not too peachy.

*Some people really confuse and piss me off (no, noone in my family--though, some tend to spark my temper) I hate when you have a "friend" (notice the quotation marks) who just leaves you behind, for no reason--so, you end up confused and thinking "well, they must not like me anymore". I mean, if they don't want you around, why an't they just say it? But, you know what? I really don't give a shit at the moment. Things like this help me to realize who my true friends are--and, I think I'm going to write a little message to the people who actually care--I have a feeling it'll put me in a good mood.

*Kelly* You mean more than you could ever realize. Each time I wake with a smile on my face, it's because of you. I fall more in love with you every day.

*Sam* I'm so glad that we became friends. You've been a fun person to be around, but also, one of the few I know I can trust. There are some people who can't keep their mouths shut, but I know you won't spill my secrets.

*Amanda* We share alot of the same ideas and interests. You're probably the only person who I can sit and talk to about fairies, death, superstitions, magic, and all that weird stuff for hours on end. Also, you were the first person I began to trust--and you helped me out when things were tough.

*Adri* It's amazing how different we are, and yet we get along great. I know we'll never fully understand eachother's way of thinking, but it keeps things interesting. You're another one of my friends that i can trust.

*Autumn* Hey Fall, I hope I've helped you out in the past (when you needed advice). I don't mind acting as your therapist, and I think you know that. I've had fun chatting with you, and watching you and Adri *fight*.

*Adam* You're an awesome brother. You're the only person who I can sit and talk with about every single stupid dumb thing in this entire universe. We rarely fight, and when we do, it's only because one of us is PMSing. You're funny, and stupid at times, but it's fun having you around.

***That concludes. I'm in a much better mood.

La la la

*** *These chicks don't even know the name of my band, but they're all on me like they wanna hold hands*

I wasn't doing much, so I thought I'd write a little. Adam's warped by video games, and James is downstairs watching some weird movie. My elbow's cut up and bruised a bit, my foot and ankle are too--I wrecked on Adam's board the day before--haha, that nite was funny as hell--not getting into that though. We might go to Cassville today, Adam and some of his friends want to skate--James and I might mope around and look like bums (it's not as though that'll take much effort :)).

I miss Kelly right now--it was our 5 month Thursday--feels as though it should be longer. But, I'll see him soon, so I'll survive.

I wish 4:30 would roll around sooner--I'm supposed to go to Adri's today. Sam wants me to come over Sun, if she's home--I would make her spend the nite here, but Dana might, so.....no no, can't have that.

Well, I'm gonna go torture my beloved brothers, so this will have to end............................here.

Ugh....

*** I'm sitting here at the library. Stuck. I came with my sis to check out some books, but she insists on staying another 30 min or so to type something up. Yay. So, the only form of amusement that I have is to sit here and type away. Oh joy. <---and I'm already bored out of my skull....

With tears of blood, he cleansed the hand, the hand that held the steel, for only blood can wipe out blood, and only tears can heal..

I've lived to bury my desires, and see my dreams corrode with rust...now all that's left are fruitless fires, that burn my empty heart to dust.

Yay, I talked her down to leaving in ten minutes.

The library lady, the one who always wears her hair in a tight little bun at the nape of her neck, just got done looking over my shoulder. A tad bit creepy..she said she was just making sure that I wasn't 'doing e-mail'. What is their obsession with not letting people check e-mail on certain computers. Ugh..this place is toooooo quiet. Whenever I was looking at books earlier, I felt like any noise I made was echoing. And I knocked over a couple rows of books. Oops.

Alright, I can't take this anymore, I've got a migraine. I'm gonna look up porn or something. *haha, just joking*

Read Me

***

let my heart spill
like an endless flood
let my eyes fill
and rain tears of blood

shake the stars
so that the heavens will fall
take my heart as yours
for now and for all

let this dream fade
like a lifelong mist
wake this slumber
and the love that exists

Bleh...

*** Bleh..bleh..bleh..

.....*sigh*.....

***Today was confusing, stressing, and ...thoughtful. My friends and I had a serious conversation about moving to Southwest...I know for a fact that my dad would be up for it......there's a good chance that Sam will be moving; Amanda was talking about leaving too...Poor Adri. But, then I got home and Adam and me had a looong talk. He really wants to move back to Rogers, and now he has me going about 98% in that direction. Ugh, my brain hurts! (and MAP testing today didn't exactly help any! grrr...) *sigh*..............I'm going to have to do alot of thinking, before Adam and me tell our parents. I bet they'll take this gladly. There are alot of positives in moving....It's too bad that the only person I'll know (in highschool) is James Bandy (my brother)-->he's awesome though. :).

Right now I'm talking to Mokie, she just told me she's getting married!! I learned the other day that Heather is too..wow..there's NO way I could do something THAT permanent so young.

Ok......well, I think I'm going to go jump Adam, he's asleep on my bed. *rolls eyes* pathetic, :):):):)